Hello it’s been a while.
I haven’t felt the strong urge to put down my thoughts in the same way recently I am yet to decide if that is a good or bad thing.
It’s 5am again it’s the second time in 3 days I have woken around at this time because of a panicked state… this is not fun in the slightest. As it now means that the rest of the day shall be spent in the most tired and drained state with the husband off at work and me trying to keep it together to look after the bear.
This time I woke because of chest pains not a nice thing at all to wake from as you then have to spend a decent amount of time analysing causes and scanning for other hazards… I mean come on how strenuous is it to lie down. The husband doesn’t seem to be concerned so I am trying my hardest now to stand down the panic police to hopefully allow me to get some sleep. I must remember to unclench and relax my jaw the pain I am getting from there is because I am holding it so firmly in place not because of a heart attack…
Ok here’s hoping this will help. I will type in all thoughts currently and allow my adaptive and reasonable brain to process why what I am fearing is my current situation is fabricated through my mental health…
unclench jaw ✅
Stretch ✅
Breathe ✅
You will feel nauseas that is anxiety and fear, take a deep breathe this too shall pass
That weird almost burning feeling in your throat could be GERD… let’s think about this… if this is acid reflux then yep you get pain and discomfort, you will feel sick too. Anxiety makes that worse and so can that fact that I was lying down.
Ok if you were having a heart attack you certainly wouldn’t be typing this out to reassure yourself of safety.
Ok I can feel my blood pressure to a more normal estate. This is good!
Ok so the cramping/pangs you are feeling in your stomach is probably due to anxiety/IBS/acid reflux.
Unclench your jaw! ✅
Eyes are burning well that’s because you are tired!
Take a deep breath…
The headache you have is due to air pressure and stress.
Stretch!
Cough allow yourself to relax your chest.
Go back to bed and try to sleep it off.